To listen to the audio of this blog, click here: blog sept 22 2010
Yesterday when I wrote about life being a continuum, and that death isn’t the end, I didn’t mean that we don’t have to live our lives in the best way we can this lifetime because hey, who cares, we can do it next time.
I didn’t mean that at all, because it’s really saying that life isn’t precious. But life is very precious, every moment of it, no matter what happens next time round.
Believing that death isn’t the end isn’t really a philosophy to live by, because it doesn’t address living, it’s about dying, it addresses fear of death. But it’s speculative, because what happens beyond this experience is possibly something we can’t know for certain.
What we do know for sure is that we’re alive now, with a lust for life, and things we want to turn from dreams into reality. Big things and small things.
Right now what’s preoccupying me much more than what happens when I die, is trying to figure out how to combine the fuel of my dreams and desires with practical management of time and prioritizing so that my dreams translate into something real. Because I want to accomplish the things I’ve had my sights on since I was a child.
Whether I succeed or not isn’t ultimately in my hands and I recognize that, but I’m giving it my best and I will never give up. Lately I’ve been feeling as if everything is slipping away from me; too many projects, not enough time. I can feel a Bridget Jones type catastrophe coming on! Helllp, I’m going to die and be eaten by Alsations.
But actually, I just needed some help in managing what I’m doing, that’s all, and I got it. Phew, relief! Can be woman of substance after all. Definitely don’t fancy being eaten by Alsations. So now I have a plan that has priorities and points of focus.
Managing our lives? It’s a pretty challenging thing to do, if life is precious to you and you don’t want to waste it. You want to make the best decisions you can, you want to work hard but not drive yourself to death, you want to retain your independence of mind and spirit. Eat well, sleep well, play, have fun, love, be loved, live in community in peace and harmony, work well and with inspiration, be rewarded well… These things apparently don’t come that easily to humans!
Yes, there’s plenty to do while we’re alive. As for death, I don’t want it to happen, I want to carry on living, just the same as everybody else. I sure don’t want to die before I’m dead, what a waste. Even when I’m dead I don’t want to die! Whatever happens, I think I’ll cross that bridge when I get there. Right now I’ve got some living to do.
In general, this blog is about the pursuit of dreams. Mine are to establish myself as a vocalist, film script & blog writer & novelist, to have my own radio station & to earn by doing something meaningful. Click here to read more. To hear an audio blog with me singing Stormy Weather click here: 2nd blog audio sept 18 2010