I want to get on this Egyptian boat and sail down the Nile.
I want to give up and run away. I’m sick of being brave and persistent and accountable.
Don’t feel like doing any of it today. Today I want to be a rich kid whose parents have a gorgeous home somewhere in upstate New York or Alaska with great rolling lawns leading down to the water’s edge. I want a life like I saw in “The Proposal” last night on TV. I want to be Sandra Bullock in that film. I want to have that family.
I want to have that happy ending.
My life is too small. I feel like Alice in Wonderland when she was too big for the house.
I feel sure that somehow I should be able to just walk out the door and keep walking until I reach something more exciting. I should be able to just step onto that boat. I don’t want to step out of my history, I want to sail out of it.